It hurts so bad, I wish it would just all go away.
Away, far away never to return again.
Again, it happens again, and again, and again. It never stops.
Stops me from laughing, stops me from living.
Living, doesn't seem to be real any more.
Any more real then the fake smile on my face.
Face, scared and broken, can't look in a mirror.
Mirror, my life throws the same thing back at me all the time just like a mirror throws a reflection.
reflection, so ugly.
ugly, just like my so called life I've been pretending to have all these years.
Years, after all these years, nothing has changed. It never will
Will I live through all this pain?
Pain, oh the pain i feel every single day, its unbearable
Unbearable, to the point I take it out on myself with a blade.
Blade, the cold feels so good on my skin.
Skin, seeping out blood, and I feel alive for a minute.
Minute it only takes a minute for me to be gone forever.
Forever in a world where he can't hurt me anymore, I will be free from his grip.
Grip, I will never be able to get out of his grip. Ever.
Free, I will never make it out alive.
Alive, I never was alive!
Alive, never felt more alive, until I was dead.
Dead, being dead feels so good, compared to all the suffering I have endured.
Endured, I have endured so much, I can't stand much more.
More and more hurt comes everyday.
Everyday, I feel him touch me, hurt me, abuse me.
Me, who am I really? I feel like a no one.
No one, no one loves me. No one cares.
Cares, about how much hurt I've been through, and how much more to come.
Come, come save me. Please.
Please, take me from this place that is giving so much pain.
Pain, oh the pain. it hurts so bad.
Bad, is an understatement, I'm in torture, I'm being brutalized, by my thoughts.
thoughts, when will you become good again?
Again and again this pain never ends.
Ends, the end of my life is coming soon.
Soon won't be fast enough for me.
Me, what is wrong with my self image.
Image that I hate so much it's sometimes unbearable.
Unbearable, the way I feel, is more then I can take.
Take me from myself, save me from myself.
Myself, I can't believe that ugly, fat thing.
Thing that seems to always be a disappointment.
Disappointment, that is all I will ever be to him.
Him, you may ask, who is he? He is a monster, he is the man that ruined my life,
he is the man that tortured me.
-Damara and Beth
